My Brick Wall

Hello Friend,

I went to my first dance class in 4 years tonight! It was absolutely wonderful! It is a ballet/tap combo class for adults and there were 3 of us plus the teacher. It was great. I had boob sweat! I'm still in shock over the fact that I had boob sweat! I haven't had that in 4 years. It felt great. What wasn't so great was seeing myself in a leotard. That was definitely a low in the evening. I just wrote about it to my friends and that was tough. Finally admitting to myself that I need to get working. Hello my name is Kim and I'm a talker and not a doer about my health. Hello Kim! I just sat there staring, realizing that I have been in complete denial over how I felt about how I looked more importantly how I felt. Like I told my friends it wasn't all about how I looked but how I felt about my not being completely engaged in getting healthy and in shape. What was I thinking? We'll I can tell you..."it's not that bad." I have uttered that phrase to myself too many times. In dance class, you are always critiquing how you look during technique, choreography etc. You have to be honest with yourself and if something isn't working right you find a way to fix it. Why has it taken me so long to look in the mirror and be honest with myself that this isn't working and I have to fix my health? It was a good awakening in lighting the fire under my tush to be serious! I hope I didn't get too deep in relaying this story to my friends? I just hope I didn't get to heavy. I'm coming to realize that sometimes it isn't all you that get thoughts moving in the right direction. I know that the angels help point us in the right direction. Even though I have questioned my faith in the past I feel I have come full circle and am embracing my faith, knowing the Angels are talking! All I have to do is listen. I'm such a work in progress!! :-)