To Turkey or not to Turkey-That is the Question

OK, I'm having a really hard time with what to do this holiday season.  Now, we have not eaten beef or pork in our house, on a regular basis, for a long time with the exception of my stuffing, stuffed mushrooms and breakfast casserole that we make at Christmas once a year, but we still have turkey and chicken at least three times a week.   I am looking into using a soy bacon for the breakfast casserole and a soy sausage for the stuffing and mushrooms although I am finding that not all soy products translate that well. What is really bothering me is I have recently received several e-mails and taken in a few sights on the treatment of turkeys and how they are processed.  Lets just say I was horrified!  

This year it is just us for Thanksgiving and we had decided not to do the full traditional dinner since we have a full house at Christmas and will be having a big meal then which would include a turkey. I'm having a really hard time with this.  I just cannot rationalize my cooking a food product that was so horribly abused and tortured!  I agree with a good friend of mine who had a very similar meat discussion on her blog, that I know animals will not be treated like the family pet, but I agree that they should be treated with respect and dignity.   They should be treated and processed humanely.  This is my dilemma and it has made me re-think the chicken and ground turkey we use regularly.  

Even though I would love to try it I don't think my family and in-laws, mom excluded since she is a vegetarian, will be into a Tofurky.  So, I'm in the process of finding a turkey of the organic, natural, free range kind that is processed in a humanely manner.  Not an easy task.  Our local Whole Foods Market has complete turkey dinners that you can purchase.   They work with the Plainville Turkey Company.  I have gone to their website and they are very much into treating their turkey's naturally and humanely even in their transport to the processing plant.  But my question is what then happens at the processing plant?  If I ask the company about their processing will I get a straight answer?  We have an amazing local deli that is also doing turkey's.  They are advertising that their turkey's are all natural/organic and come from Amish country in Michigan.  I'm going to check that out as well. 

 So, I am on the investigative hunt to find something that will work for my Turkey loving family and my ethical quandary.  If anyone has an insight as to some suggestions I would be all ears since I don't think this is going to be easy.

I will keep you posted on what I find out!

Almost Done!

I am so excited because I am almost done with the 10 month program I have been doing to get my 5 year renewable professional teaching credential.  For those of you who don't know, when I was teaching before Doodlebug came along, I was teaching on a temporary credential.  I was working on getting my 5 year professional through the county offices when I found out I was pregnant. Once I went out on maternity leave I discovered that the program that I was in through the county was only open to full time employees.  So, I am now back to getting that done.  My last class was on November 1.  Yeah!  Now I'm finishing up my hard copy and electronic copy portfolio's and I have an exit interview.  Then everything ships off to Tallahassee and once I get processed I will have my credential.  My only hope is that the exit interview process doesn't drag on.  I was hoping to be all said and done by December 1.  I will just have to wait and see, but I'm just so excited.  It was a long 10 months, but I have a 4.0 GPA and I'm now ready to move on and work on the course work I need to add the Reading Endorsement to my credential.  More work to do but the first step is almost done! Yeah!

Pain versus Exhaustion

I have been asked on several occasions  "which is worse the pain or the exhaustion of Fibromyalgia?"  Since I didn't have an answer at the time of being asked I decided to write it out since sometimes that is the best way for me to work out a question.  Maybe that goes back to my word problem days in math! (LOL) 

At this point I haven't been able to decide since they are both equally not fun.  I think the best answer that I have right now is it depends on the day.  Which may sound odd but really this is a day to day process.   There are days that the pain is much worse and there are days that the exhaustion is much worse.  There are days when it can be one or the other.  For example there will be a day where I have energy but the pain is great or vice versa.  Then there are days when it is both.  That is the most frustrating part of this whole thing.  Never knowing from day to day what kind of day I will have and what I will be able to accomplish.  

Obviously the next question would be "what are you doing to combat this roller coast ride?"  My answer to that......I'm learning on it.  Instead of saying I'm working on it I'm saying I'm learning on it because it really is a learning process.  Everything that I did in the past for my body in terms of pain relief, eating, exercising, relaxation, etc. is out the window.  I have to find a whole new way in which to function and frankly I'm excited about that.  I'm looking at this as a positive change for my health and well being. Why wallow in self pity since that won't get you anywhere!  I'm  reading as much as I can and seeing what has worked for others to give a try. Since not everything works for everyone I'm keeping a journal to figure out what works and what doesn't and creating a bag of tricks for myself.  Laughter is healing so guess what, I'm laughing as much as I can because really if you could see me getting to the toilet in the morning it really is a funny sight! :-)

So, I think that is my answer right now and I will keep you posted on how I fill my bag of tricks. I just keep remembering that you aren't given more than you can handle even when you think you can't handle anymore! :-)

ABC Meme

I saw this on a friends blog and thought it was just to fun to pass up!

A is for Attached or Single? Attached since 1994.

B is for Best Friend? Julie, Mary, and Kay (I miss them dearly!)

C is for Cake or Pie?  Cake: MIL Silver White Cake, Pie: Apple Carmel Pie

D is for Day of Choice? Sunday, a day of peace!

E is for Essential Item?  My calendar journal.  Without it I would completely lost.

F is for Favorite Color?  Pink or Earth Tones.

G is for Gummy Bears or Worms?  Bears.

H is for Hometown?   San Francisco, California.

I is for Favorite Indulgence?  A bubble bath, alone!  Candles included!

J is for January or July?  Before living in Florida I would have said July since that is when my birthday is.  Now, I say January since I crave cooler weather!

K is for Kids?   Doodlebug age 3 1/2

L is for Life isn't complete without? My family!

M is for Marriage Date?  October 8, 1995

N is for Number of Brothers and Sisters?  1 Brother

O is for Oranges or Apples?  Apples:  Braeburn or Granny Smith! Yummy

P is for Phobias?   Not to fond of heights.                                            

Q is for Quotes?  "Life is like an instrument.  The beauty and quality of the music is based on he devotion of the musician playing it."

R is for Reasons to Smile? Doodlebug!  She makes me smile every day!

S is for Season of Choice?  Winter

T is for Tag 5 People?  Anyone reading this, consider yourself tagged.

U is for Unknown fact about me?  When I was 10 I almost had to have left leg amputated from the knee down due to an infection.

V is for Vegetable?   Broccoli!

W is for Worst Habit?  Biting my nails!

X is for X-ray or Ultrasound?  Between the two of them and the number I have had I should be glowing!

Y is for Your Favorite Food?  Homemade Turkey Burgers from the grill with all the trimmings!

A New Life Change: Fibromyalgia

For those of you who don't know I have been going through a great deal of medical testing the past few months.  I have had a great deal of pain and fatigue along with some other things that have been going on for many months and we have been working with my GP and others to get to the bottom of.    For a long time I just ignored it.  I figured I'm 40 with a 3 year old and I'm going to be tired and have aches and pains, but this went way beyond that.  It had gotten to the point where I dreaded the first steps of the morning because they were so painful.  I hit my 41st birthday this summer and I felt like I was 81.  This was not being in the 40's with a pre-schooler this was something else.  This past Wednesday I met again with the Rheumatologist to get the results of what we hoped might the last of the tests and some answers.  Final diagnosis at this time:  Fibromyalgia.  So, I have now begun the research process to find out all I can about this and what we can do since the new drug Cymbalta they are using is not an option for me as well as corticosteroids or muscle relaxers.  The body doesn't react well to any of those and I don't want to take a ton of pills either.  I hate pills!  But that's a whole other story.  The Rheumatologist that I saw, who was fantastic, has given us several holistic options such as Yoga and massage and I'm researching several diet options. If anyone who is reading this has any information, knows of anyone dealing with this or is dealing with this and has suggestions on anything, I would love to get the information.  This is all new to me.  I have always  been a self-sufficient, independent person, the person who takes care of things and gets things done.  Now I'm going to have to learn how to ask for help and make changes that right now I'm having a hard time dealing with.  Change isn't a bad thing, I actually like change, when I'm the one in control of the change!  I know there will be ups and downs, so it's time to deal with each day as it comes and to realize I can't control everything.  I think I have tried this many times before but always seemed to manage to go back to what I guess I would call my comfort zone.  Now, I have to let go of the control to find comfort.  Boy, I think this is going to be a tough lesson for me! :-)  I will keep you posted!

Labor Story for Labor Day

In reading some of my friends blogs tonight, I'm going to follow their lead with the following meme.  I also just watched an episode of John and Kate + 8 on TLC and they had taken their 4 year old sextuplets to the NICU to see where they had been born.  So, In honor of labor day.... a labor story.

How long were your labors?

I have only had 1 and it is a very long story.  So, to make the long story as short as possible.  I went into labor on a Monday evening.   Contractions were every 5 minutes lasting about a minute.  After some discussion at the hospital triage (there was some confusion as to how far along I was.  I was 6 weeks early.  Once this was confirmed by my doc, the nurses were hopping. They thought I was full term.) I was admitted and sent directly to labor and delivery.  This was were I was until my beautiful Doodlebug was born on Wednesday at 10:47pm.  If we want to talk actual hours from when the contractions began to when I actually delivered I believe that would be 52 hours and 17 minutes.  I told you it was a long story! :-)

How did you know you were in labor?

I went from 0-60 in about an hour.  We had gone to the airport to sign for some tickets. Another long story.  On the way back I began having contractions.  Within an hour they were every 5 minutes lasting about a minute.  They were pretty good ones but I was able to breathe and do my thing up until Wednesday morning. 

Where did you deliver?

At the hospital!  I had hoped to do some laboring at home, do the tub thing, a little relaxation etc.  but that was not meant to be.  Doodlebug had other plans! :-)

Drugs?

Oh my yes!    Because I was 6 weeks early we had hoped that my labor would stop because my doc wanted to get at least another 3 weeks.  At 34 weeks they don't do anything to stop or kick your labor into gear they just let the body do it's thing.  Tuesday morning contractions were still going the same but a bit stronger and by Tuesday evening I was dilated to 3 centimeters so I wasn't going anywhere.  They gave me something to try to help me sleep but it didn't do a thing.  By early Wednesday morning I was done.  I woke DH up with a banshee type scream that shook the building, "GET SOMEONE HERE NOW!"  That was his description although I don't remember screaming but I know I was extremely insistent and was ready to induce physical harm on anyone that walked in the room that didn't have relief on the way.  The nurse, who was wonderful, checked me and  I was 5 centimeters.  They ordered the epidural and I was a happy camper.  I recall telling the anesthesiologist that I loved him multiple times.  We thought Doodlebug would be here by noon, but the labor stalled.  They called the high risk doc in to do an amniocentesis to check lung development.  During the nurse change over at 7pm my water broke and I immediately dilated to 10 centimeters.  The drugs were so very good!

C-Section?

No, but my doc told me that since Doodlebug had come face up and got stuck even being early, that they predicted that if I had gone full term I would have been a c-section.  

Who Delivered?

My incredible doc.  She is just so amazing.  We had an amazing team with us during that time.  I was in the smallest room but had the most people in there from my doc and nurse, to my mom, DH, my Doula, and the neo-natal and respiratory specialist teams.  We were a packed house!  I had a hard time with pushing but on the last push for some reason I got it and Doodlebug shot out and doc was there to literally catch her!

You know, it was long and it was scary but it was such an amazing experience.  An experience that we had dreamed about.  One that we had waited so long for, one that we just didn't think we would get to have.  I wouldn't change a thing.  

Grocery Savings

OK, I'm really excited.  I discovered a blog, via a friend of mine, that is all about getting the most bang for your buck while grocery shopping.  Fiddledeedee.blogspot.com.  Now, I have been pretty good at clipping coupons, and working with a list based on a menu plan, but I always new I could do better.  We'll today I was really excited.  So here, was my bill, mind you I have not been able to get our grocery bill under $180+.

Total Grocery Bill = $145.42

Vendor Coupons = $3.10

Store Coupons = $3.00

Advertised Special Savings = $5.46

Advantage Buy Savings = $5.11

Total Savings = $16.67

Now, this bill didn't include meat or cleaning supplies but did include a rectal thermometer (we have a sick kitty and have to monitor it's temp, I know TMI), and Huggies Wipes.   I usually get cleaning supplies at Target because it is cheaper and they carry the green cleaning products that I use.  Yes, I am cleaning with all green cleaning products with the exception of laundry detergent, softener and dish washing detergent.  I haven't found one that I like, but I'm working on it.  I also have some bleach in the house in our hurricane kit.  Which came in very handy since 2 1/2 rooms in our house flooded with Fay.   But, that story is for another post.  Anyways, I know that I can do even better but knowing that I cut the bill by $40 which included all the organic stuff that I like for us, was pretty exciting and I just wanted to share!

New Start

It has been forever since I have written on my personal blog.  Our summer was so incredibly busy.  I had such hopes for a lazy days summer but that wasn't to be the case.  So, since our summer is quickly coming to an end, I decided to give myself a new start and give the blog a fresh new face along with this new start.  

Life is just too busy right now.  I keep trying to somehow streamline our schedule, get things so organized that the house basically runs itself, and just make things simple, but life just marches on and the merry go round continues.  I don't see life getting quieter since the world is not quiet right now but if our home could be a haven, a soft place to land for everyone, then maybe just maybe life won't seem so nuts.  So, since the summer is coming to a close, since the fall school term begins in a week I have decided to give this simple life at home another go.  How am I going to do this?  We'll that is what I'm working on.  Going back to some of the principles that I learned by reading Flylady info., and things that I wanted to accomplish in my 1,001 days list I'm creating a rough draft of things that I would love to see happen for us.  Then have a family meeting to get everyone's input and come up with a plan that we can all strive toward.  Now, I know it takes 21+ days to create a habit, I'm not so naive that I think this will happen overnight, but I really think if the whole family is on the same page we can truly make a difference in the way we live.  It's not just a want but a necessity.  I will keep you posted on our progress.  If you have any suggestions or thoughts on things that work or have worked for your family please send them my way.  I'm all ears! :-)

Quote of the Day

God measures us by putting the tape measure around our hearts.

Do what you can, for who you can, with what you have, and where you are!

Thankful Thursday A Day Late

My Thankful Thursday entry is a day late this week.  Yesterday was a really, really rough day!  Now that I have had a chance to just sit and think about the day, what I am truly thankful for is for all the angels that hovered around me giving me the strength that I needed and to just breathe through the pain.   I am thankful for the bad days because I know that there are good days just around the corner! 

Quote of the Day

May today there be peace within you.

My you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

I believe that friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.

Thankful Thursday's

This was a very busy day and a day of lasts. It was Doodlebugs last school program for the year and our last playgroup. Due to schedules we won't be able to get together as a group. I know there will be many more firsts and lasts to come but today was the real first of the lasts.

I was sad today because of the lasts but in thinking of my thankfullness for this Thursday I am thankful for Doodlebugs school and especially her teacher. Our family was truely blessed at having this teacher in her life. Her caring, kindness, patience, warmth and compassion as well as her understanding of Doodlebugs temperment were amazing and we couldn't have asked for a better fit for her first adventures with school.

I am also extremely thankful for our playgroup. It has been wonderful for Doodlebug to have such terrific playmates, but really this group was more for me then for her if I really think about it. This is a group of truely amazing women and what they have given me could never be thanked for enough. They were sounding boards, adivce columnists, shoulders to cry on, idea gatherers, google and yahoo combined. But what was the most impactful for me is their faith. The strengh they gather from their faith has just made such an difference in me and my own struggles with faith. Even though we won't be getting together as a playgroup I will still keep all these amazing women in my life. Not just for myself but hopefully to be a strength for them as we work our ways through parenthood and life.

In Remembrance

This is a day of remembrance.  A day to remember those that gave selflessly in service to our country.  I also see today as a day to think about our men and women overseas.  I don't believe in war.  I don't believe in the war in Iraq but I do believe in the troops.  I believe they need our love, support, and prayers.  I believe in peace and that is what I pray for today and everyday!  Peace for our homes, our country, our world.

Thankful Thursday's

I had originally began this blog as my gratitude journal, a place to work through things for me and how to foster faith in my life.  I had gotten away from that a bit.   A friend of mine has been doing a Thankful Thursday in her blog and I think this is just wonderful.  So, here it goes, my first Thankful Thursday.

I am thankful for my family.  They are my strength and inspiration.

I am thankful for my daughters energy.  Even though it is exhausting at times I treasure that it keeps me young and active.  I am also thankful for her laugh.  No matter what is happening, her laugh can brighten any bad day and make me smile and laugh right along with her.

I am thankful for a new day every day that has been supplied to me by the angels.  It is a chance for a fresh start for everyday.

The Mega Eco Challenge

4/29/2008

In knowing my efforts to go green, one of my dear BFF's turned me onto a new "green" blog. Crunchy Chicken.  This is a great "go green" blog.  She has some really great challenges.  April was the buy nothing but what you need.  For the month of may she has a huge mega go green eco challenge.  All I have to say is Yikes!  In my heart I would love to be able to go full force with this challenge but realistically I just don't think it is possible.  Let me fill you in on the details and as my BFF put it... eee gad responses.  Remember this is all or nothing, no halvsies and as the numbers go up so does the difficulty of the challenges. My responses are in orange and I'm not whining I'm just tying to work through my own thoughts on how I could participate fully in this challenge.  I would love to know your thoughts on this and maybe some solutions as to how this could be done.

1.  No Plastic - Even if it is recyclable.  Don't buy or consume anything (purchases, food, etc.) that is encased in plastic. If you want to go all the way on this one that includes deodorant, toothpaste, shampoo.

Everything is plastic!  Even my toothbrush is plastic!  We are such a plastic nation it is amazing. Coming from California where there is an amazing array of fresh fruits and veggies and nothing is in plastic it was really hard to go shopping here where almost everything is shipped in and encased in plastic.  I would love to shop at Whole Foods on a regular basis but that just isn't in the budget.  Publix has a decent organic section, but sometimes the veggies don't look the greatest.  Don't get me wrong, there is a lot I can do here with this challenge.  I already use cloth bags when I shop and if I do need one more bag I ask for paper.  Then I cut the paper bags open for DD to use for her painting and coloring. Which I have been saving to use as wrapping paper at Christmas.  So, we'll see about this challenge I don't have a plan yet.  Any suggestions? 

2.  No Paper - this encompasses the obvious:  newspaper, toilet paper,paper towels, napkins, pad, tampons, paper or coffee cups etc.  

Ok, I can handle everything but the TP, and feminine products.  First off, I question if this is really effective since this would make more water consumption from having to wash the rags used or whatever.  I have done this once during a TP shortage for one day in college.  Not really pleasant.  Could we really watch how much we use?  Of course and we will, but unless your using a huge amount of fabric softener, rags are not conducive to comfort for this post-pregnancy hemmroidal woman.

3.  No Driving-this one is pretty straightforward.  Check out public transportation and bus routes.  Check out bus schedules and purchase a bus pass, get your bike tuned up or dust off those running/walking shoes.

This one is pretty self explanatory.  There is a bus line but I need to do some research on how convenient it is.  Would it be easier to just drive and cut back on where I drive to and how much gas is consumed then to take the bus?  Maybe?  I will keep you posted.  

4.  Local Food Only-depending on where you live, this may be fairly easy or quite difficult.  Local bakery items(unless Sara Lee is local to you), local organic or sustainable diary products, eggs, meats and wineries and breweries are all acceptable.

I know of one farmers market that is on Saturday's in Winter Park.  Are there any others?  Has anyone been to the Winter Park farmers market?  I just need to do some research on what is local for us.   I will keep you posted on what I find.  I just don't think this will be real easy.

5.  No Garbage Output-You should only be producing waste that is compostable and it should go into your compost pile or municipal food waste pick up.

6.  No Excessive Water Usage-Now I'm not expecting you to dehydrate yourself.  What this is about is conserving water.  Very little water for showering, bathing, washing.

This one I already do where showers are concerned.  Coming from California and having lived through droughts, I am really used to taking short, military style showers.  Not to mention all the summers I spent with Drum Corps and cold showers.  You get really fast or you freeze.  I think we do a pretty good job on our water consumption.  I think we can be even better where laundry is concerned. We have a lot of laundry but I know we can be better.  This challenge is on our list. 

7.  No Electricity-For some of you this may be easier if you rely on gas for heating and cooking, but for the most case, this will give you an idea what it will be like to not rely on power for a period of time.  If you only want to try this one out for a day or week, that's fine.

We don't have gas at our house.  I wish we did.  My mom had gas in California and it really is a better way to cook.  Now I don't think I can go without power or what I should say is AC.  Being pre-menopausal and add hot on top of that is not a pleasant combination.  Now, can we be better? Of course.  Changing light bulbs, unplugging things not in use, turning off lights, etc..

I would love to hear your thoughts!

Great Day!

4/29/2008

Today is a great day! The weather has been just perfect today. The sun has been shinning. It's not too hot or too cold but just right! Of course we haven't been able to be out in it too much since DD has an upper respiratory infection and pink eye, but we have had all the windows open and there is just a wonderful breeze. We have played on the back porch and just had a wonderful day. DD took a great quiet time and I was able to get some school work done. It has just been a day full of peace and I have to thank the angels for that today because I think they knew we needed it. Another amazing blessing is as of today we no longer have a car payment! I thought we had one more month to go but we received the letter today. I had to call because I was sure it was a mistake. I have never not had a car payment my whole life. I also think this is a blessing from the angels because they know how lean the summer months are and this will be a wonderful break. Although, I have decided to take that money and put it to paying off something else since it is already budgeted, but it does make us breathe a little easier for the summer. Again, the angels are working overtime for us today and I couldn't be more thankful!

Grace

Friday, April 18

I came across this on a shampoo bottle of all places and I just fell in love with it.  It makes so much sense to me.  I printed it out and now carry it with me in my day planner!  Enjoy.

Grace:

Philosophy:  Life is a classroom.  We are both student and teacher.  Each day is a test and each day we receive a passing or failing grade in one particular subject:  Grace.  Grace is compassion, gratitude, surrender, faith, forgiveness, good manners, reverence and the list goes on.  It's something money can't buy and credentials rarely produce.  Being the smartest, the prettiest, the most talented, the richest or even the poorest can't help.  Being a humble person can and being a helpful person can guide you through your days with Grace and Gratitude.

My Easter Experience

Hello Friend,

It has been a few days but I had wanted to gather my thoughts before putting them down on paper.  This was a tremendous Easter for me.  I went to my first Stations of the Cross.  It was actually done live with players and was incredibly powerful.  I always new the story of what happened, vaguely, but to see it enacted was at times very difficult to watch.  I just couldn't get past the pain.   It has compelled me to see the movie "The Passion of Christ."  I think one of the hardest things for me has been having faith.  What does that mean really?  I think over the past couple of years that has been a big question for me and the conclusion that I have found is that I'm not going to be given a magic formula for the answer.  The answer has to come from within and I have to relinquish the need to have total control!  Wow, that is hard!  I have friends that are just so amazing with their sense of faith and how it is such a big important part of their lives.  I look on them as my touchstones to really believing in faith and having it be important in my life.   Our Easter mass was amazing!  I left mass feeling so at peace, a peace I don't think I have every felt.  I guess you could say I had one of those "Aha" moments.  Now, I'm not silly to think there won't be ups and downs, but that is life!  Again, I'm such a work in progress.

My Brick Wall

Hello Friend,

I went to my first dance class in 4 years tonight! It was absolutely wonderful! It is a ballet/tap combo class for adults and there were 3 of us plus the teacher. It was great. I had boob sweat! I'm still in shock over the fact that I had boob sweat! I haven't had that in 4 years. It felt great. What wasn't so great was seeing myself in a leotard. That was definitely a low in the evening. I just wrote about it to my friends and that was tough. Finally admitting to myself that I need to get working. Hello my name is Kim and I'm a talker and not a doer about my health. Hello Kim! I just sat there staring, realizing that I have been in complete denial over how I felt about how I looked more importantly how I felt. Like I told my friends it wasn't all about how I looked but how I felt about my not being completely engaged in getting healthy and in shape. What was I thinking? We'll I can tell you..."it's not that bad." I have uttered that phrase to myself too many times. In dance class, you are always critiquing how you look during technique, choreography etc. You have to be honest with yourself and if something isn't working right you find a way to fix it. Why has it taken me so long to look in the mirror and be honest with myself that this isn't working and I have to fix my health? It was a good awakening in lighting the fire under my tush to be serious! I hope I didn't get too deep in relaying this story to my friends? I just hope I didn't get to heavy. I'm coming to realize that sometimes it isn't all you that get thoughts moving in the right direction. I know that the angels help point us in the right direction. Even though I have questioned my faith in the past I feel I have come full circle and am embracing my faith, knowing the Angels are talking! All I have to do is listen. I'm such a work in progress!! :-)

On the Mend In More Ways then One

Hello Friend,

We'll the entire house is on the way to getting back to some form of normalcy. The sickness is finally on the mend and DH is back from overseas. I'm also really looking forward to tomorrow nights "craft till you drop" night with friends. I really feel like I need a dose of friends and laughter. I'm in need of a good laugh. I have had a really hard time with lent this year. My Lenten promise this year was to give up negative thoughts for those that have hurt me, my family or my dear friends. This has been harder then I thought it would be. I have realized that forgiveness is a quality that I desperately need to incorporate into my soul. So, even though this has been hard I truly believe that this is what I am meant to be doing this Lenten season. Finding forgiveness. I know the angels are there to help.

Daily Gratitude's:

1. To god, for leading me down the path to forgiveness this Lenten season and every day.

2. To my DD, for just being in my life. I am so blessed with you in it.

3. To my DH, for getting home safely and cuddling with DD all day. She missed him so much and it warmed my heart!

Daily Gratitude

Hello Friend,

I have been really sick today so this is going to be short.

1. For my DD who was just wonderful today while I was sick. What a good listener today.

2. For my DM who was just amazingly helpful. It would have been so tough today without her help.

3. For god, I know he is watching over my family while we are spread out all over the world and keeping us safe.

Good Night!

Daily Gratitude

Hello Friend,

I didn't get in my daily gratitude's yesterday with trying to get DH ready for trip and studying for school. Making time for myself is something I really need to work on so here is today's.

1. For my DD who gently put her hands on either side of my face today and said "I love you mommy."

2. For the airlines for getting DH to destination safely.

3. For the wonderful wind and sun today on my lunch break from school. It blew away any negative thoughts I was having and gave me the breath of fresh air I so desperately needed at that time.

4. For my DM, who can always find a different color of grey in the grey areas and make them work.

5. For DH, for his unconditional love! Sappy I know, but so very true!

In The Beginning

So here I go. I have decided to give the blog thing a try. I'm excited, scared, nervous.... I guess you always feel that way when you tackle something new. I have decided to begin this blog as my daily gratitude journal. It is so easy to get caught up in the daily grind of life that we forget the positive, the good, the amazing. I'm also working on my 101 things in 1,001 days. One of my DF's is participating in this and I just love the idea. I'm such a list maker and this is just so much fun and inspiring. My goal is to finish my list it this weekend and get it up on my blog so I can see it and work on it every day. Lots to do, but if I don't do this for myself then who will?

Daily Gratitudes:

1. My DD, who amazes me, makes me laugh, tests my patience and who is the love and joy of my life every day! She made up her own song today for Chik-Fillet that included a dance! I have to look up theater classes for her. That may just need to be added to my 101 things list.

2. My DH, who works his tail off so I can be home with my DD. Who loves me on my good and bad days no matter what!

3. For the rain today so that all that needed to be washed away was washed away, to help the earth with its thirst, and for the fresh, crisp air that followed.

4. For my DF's. They always seem to be there for me before I realize I need them.

5. For my family. That is really all that needs to be said. I could probably do a whole blog on just my family.

Have a great night!