At this point I haven't been able to decide since they are both equally not fun. I think the best answer that I have right now is it depends on the day. Which may sound odd but really this is a day to day process. There are days that the pain is much worse and there are days that the exhaustion is much worse. There are days when it can be one or the other. For example there will be a day where I have energy but the pain is great or vice versa. Then there are days when it is both. That is the most frustrating part of this whole thing. Never knowing from day to day what kind of day I will have and what I will be able to accomplish.
Obviously the next question would be "what are you doing to combat this roller coast ride?" My answer to that......I'm learning on it. Instead of saying I'm working on it I'm saying I'm learning on it because it really is a learning process. Everything that I did in the past for my body in terms of pain relief, eating, exercising, relaxation, etc. is out the window. I have to find a whole new way in which to function and frankly I'm excited about that. I'm looking at this as a positive change for my health and well being. Why wallow in self pity since that won't get you anywhere! I'm reading as much as I can and seeing what has worked for others to give a try. Since not everything works for everyone I'm keeping a journal to figure out what works and what doesn't and creating a bag of tricks for myself. Laughter is healing so guess what, I'm laughing as much as I can because really if you could see me getting to the toilet in the morning it really is a funny sight! :-)
So, I think that is my answer right now and I will keep you posted on how I fill my bag of tricks. I just keep remembering that you aren't given more than you can handle even when you think you can't handle anymore! :-)
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